I am, Dr Pallavi Kwatra and I bring my personal story of Guru’s grace and its blossoming in my life.
Shree Bhagwan Ramana Maharishi came into my life in 2014. Bhagwan’s compassionate eyes have been focused on me every day since then. True to his word of how it is impossible to escape the Guru’s eye just like it’s impossible to escape from a tiger’s clutches once one comes into it… Bhagwan’s living presence is getting stronger and stronger as the years roll on. Frankly, I could never sit down to meditate on the “WHO AM I” very formally, and neither could I practise SILENCE so accurately. But the tug of Shree Bhagwan at my heart always melted my heart and brimmed my eyes…they still do. I felt he was like my mother and father. I am an orphan with no parents, siblings or friends and have no one but Bhagwan as everything I need in my life. Devotion or the heart connection or the sphurna of the self are more tangible realities and methods I worked with over a decade to go deeper into Bhagwan.
In the course of my travel, around the year 2016 when I was working in sewa at Ramana Kendra, Delhi, BHAGWAN inspired me to reset the voluminous library with over thousands of books. It took me a week of herculean effort to take out over 50,000 books from their shelves, clean and index them into over 100 categories and put them back in the shelves. At many occasions in my life, I have found myself being used by the grace for undertaking tasks like this which are impossible to fathom by the mind. During this work, I encountered a book by Shambhavi Lorain Chopra on Shakti.
I gobbled the book and it introduced me to SHAKTA TANTRA for the first time in my life. Within next 2 days, another book from same author fell on my head while I was cleaning the shelf. It could not be a coincidence….I thought
The 2 books led me to my next step where I met my first Tantra Teacher. He initiated me into Shakti Mantras and opened a whole new world to me. I continued my mantra saadhna until one day, I was shown my next step. It was a book called , “The Goddess and the Guru” by Michael Bowden. It was the biography of a Nuclear scientist transformed into a SRI VIDYA GURU…Shree Amritananda Natha Saraswati of Devipuram. I was led to my SRI VIDYA LEARNINGS and Guru. The living example of a scientific man learning a deep science like Traditional Srividya aroused my inspiration to blend both. But even more than that… I saw the same kind eyes in Guruji as I saw in Shree Bhagwan. As I learnt about his deep compassion to bring DEVI TO ALL…I was already on a flight to DEVIPURAM to see this place he had curated with his life.
After my Sacred Initiation at Devipuram in 2018, I had already published my first book on Shakti called SHAMBHAVI. I went back there in 2019 for their Mahakumbhabhishekam and the idea of making a unique book on Lalitasahsranama with 1000 images was downloaded into my consciousness. It was released in 2020 and It brought me the immense grace of Devi. Soon followed 2 more books. After books, I was inspired to do deeper tapas and the next few years I remained immersed in learning and practising Sri vidya. I knew Bhagwan and Guruji were leading to this.
The next years brought me to be used for curating a body of work on Shakti with energized shreeyantras, teaching people and then leading on to Kamakhya Tantra and more. This unique and beautiful journey has made me more and more in awe of how deep and mystical our life is.
I went through deep spiritual anguish when I could not decide whether to worship Shiva as Shree Bhagwan or Shakti as Lalitatripurasundari. I used to weep to Bhagwan and ask for help. He enabled me to know as a living experience and a clear vision of them both being one. That was the birth of Shree Ramana Sundari in my consciousness. I did 1 lakh japa of the downloaded mantra over a year and arrived at this unison. The detailed blog link is given below.
Around 2020, I was astonished to learn & practise KALAVAHANA: A very advanced srividya practice where Devi is worshipped within our bodies. It immediately brought me to arrive at the nondual presence of DEVi herself. The Advaita vedanta of Shree Bhagwan & the nondual practise of Kalavahana was one only. everything is the self.
Around my 5th visit to Tiruvanamallai, something caught my attention. The neutral teachings of Bhagwan did not co-relate to a Sri chakra and Mother’s shrine. Out of all the Indian Gods and Goddess, why would Bhagwan allow a Mothers shine to be built. I met David Godman in Tiruvanamallai and got some answers. rest by my research and reading, I was enlightened to know that Bhagwan gave so much value to SHAKTI.
This was Bhagwan’s Grace and I once again realized that both tantra and advaita are based on nonduality though they appear such different paths from each other. Please read detailed blog in the link below.
Bhagwan is the BINDU OF THE SRIYANTRA &located in the hridayam.
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The Bindu of the Shree Chakra is the cosmic single point from which everything emanates and then eventually dissolves into. At this point, everything becomes ONE. This point where there is the death of the experiencer as a person who is separate from his experiences dissolves leading to Nonduality consciousness. This marks the inner sambhogha of the paradoxes merging into singular consciousness awareness.
This Bindu consciousness of nonduality is the flowering of lifetimes of sadhana which blossoms by the final grace of the Guru. There is nowhere to go and nothing to do beyond this point in one’s spiritual journey as one arrives as and at DRIG DRISHYA VIVEKA.
The outer Guru merges with the inner Guru as the self and becomes the Bindu of the Sri Chakra by divine providence alone. No Sankalpa or sadhana can enable this. Only pure grace enables this state. The Guru’s compassion is like the Mother’s unconditional love. (Matru karuna)
May we arrive at the Bindu by the updesha and grace of our Guru in this lifetime.
“Om namo ka e i la hreem
Bhagwate ha sa ka hala hreem
Ramnaya sa ka la hreem svaha”
IMPORTANT ARTICLE RESOURCES:
1.(SHREE RAMANA SUNDARI: For more, please visit: https://www.myramanamaharishi.com/ramana-sundari-the-transcendental-fused-consciousness-of-bhagwan-ramana-maharishi-devi-lalitatripurasundari-2/)
2. GURU; The matru Bindu
3. Guru Amritananda Natha: A Guru for all:
4. Tantra Advaita : https://www.drpallavikwatra.com/tantra-advaitha-the-bindu-consciousness-of-nonduality/
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